I'm an extrovert. I'm an introvert. I have multiple personality disorder.
I am energized by people. I'm also energized alone. I have multiple personality disorder.
These days, I'm...by necessity...spending a lot of time alone. It's difficult.
I miss my tribe at Mosaic Church in Little Rock.
I miss my God friends.
I miss my mentors.
I miss fun.
I sat down this morning during my devotionals and talked with God about it...He didn't talk back audibly...but He impressed fortitude into my soul...
This is a season. The doors He has opened for this period in my life have led me to this exact place. He has a plan.
I'm reading "Girls with Swords" by Lisa Bevere right now and came across this line today..."If we are to follow their example (heroes of the faith), we must become farsighted."
We must look past the current season and recognize our future...smile...wave at it...then get back to the business of today.
I've lived long enough to know that every season is preparatory...essential for the next...and God ordained. I've also learned to be content in the current season. It's really really not easy to do when it's more work than fun.
But I do trust Him. I believe I will not always work all weekend and miss my community of God Lovers...I believe I will not always be slaving away at school...I believe better days are ahead for my extrovert side. It will happen. Know why?
He created me. Exactly as I am. Multiple personality disorder and all.
Right now...He's feeding my introvert. He's feeding my soul. He is building my reserves for the future I just waved and winked at in the distance. He knows what I need.
Who knows...in the next season I might be so filled with fun and people my inner introvert will be crying out for space...and then you'll have to hear about that!
What season are you in? What are you longing for that is absent?
Trust Him today. Seasons are not forever...but they do prepare the soil for the next chapter.
Keep diggin'...Keep wavin'...
Grace n Peace,