Undone.

Sun streamed floors and quiet rooms...all is still...


Except for the sobs wracking my body...


I am undone. 


Knees deep in carpet...tears dampen my palms as I rock forward into my hands...


Overwhelming peace...pure presence...unmatchable...


I am undone.


I am wrecked at the very notion of a love this great. Pure...definitive...soft and severe simultaneously...


He beckons me...He woos me...He caresses my soul and lifts me into His arms...


I am undone.


Laundry waits on the counter...fresh...warm...but this moment...it cannot be re-scheduled...it is holy...


I utter few words...the air is thick and full of Him...words seem trite...unnecessary...


He speaks and I listen...Do not question...stand strong and go forward...


I am undone.


All my days I have longed for this...this feeling...this knowing...this place of perfection...


In this carpeted, messy, wrecked moment it is ever so clear...He. Loves. Me. 


He beckons me to hand it over...the one pervading lie I've believed for a year...a lie handed to me by another but seemingly believable...I wrestle...


I am undone.


I release the label...the lie...He gently reminds me...I am His...He has never recognized the lie I believed to be my truth...He was simply waiting for the surrender...


I am undone...and I am free.


Grace n Peace, 


A ~