This will be over soon...

I often have the same thought driving home at night from work: This will be over soon.

Don't take me wrong. Don't take me literally. Well, maybe a little.

I'm not thinking about the fact that my work week will be over soon. Nor am I ruminating upon the woes of my life and how at some point they just have to end. It's quite the opposite.

I often think of my little girls...how the days are passing so quickly...how long their legs are...how soon it will no longer be days of childhood but days of decisions and letting go...

I think of how serious everything was when I was younger. I was in such a hurry to "become"...so worried about how the ends would meet and be completed...I missed much of the beauty of aliveness...

So when I have the thought "This will be over soon"...It is very peaceful...very matter of fact...It reminds me to stay present in the stage of life I am in...to breathe in the beauty...to make the moments last...

"Soon" reminds me that life is finite and I will never be able to slow it down...but that even in this there is peace...because I'm moving toward my soul's ultimate expression...He's waiting for me and the heartaches or losses I worry that might come, will never break me totally because my ultimate living comes at the end of this journey and into the next...

Worrying and hurrying only exhaust the process and wipe away lessons and growth...they inhibit rain filled moments of wonder and joyous celebrations in the mundane of everyday living...

Aliveness is knowing that this will all be over soon. 

Aliveness is knowing that life must be "grabbed by the lapels" and kissed full on the mouth with passion...determined to experience the great love affair He intended for us. All the while knowing that our ultimate ending...is far better and thus should not be feared.

As I'm learning to walk in this way with life, I'm realizing the depths of contentment and peace this brings to my humanity. Knowing and accepting that I will age, I will love, I will hurt, I will laugh, I will fail, I will rejoice, and I will give away...these are peaceful parts of the dance towards the beginning of my real existence. There is nothing to fear. This is a temporary affair that will lead me to the love of my life...I'm good with that.

Grace n Peace,

A ~